I started this blog again at the end of September and I had good intentions of writing weekly again but as ever even the best thought out plans never go well. As previously mentioned my last blog (which I wrote weekly for years) I became scared to post anything that wasn’t a book review, I just became pigeon holed into that being my thing. Then I felt pressured to read even when I wasn’t particularly enjoying alot of the books I was reading and then became even more pressured to write a review up of everything I read – it just lost the enjoyment for me. I love reading and I don’t think I’d actually stop writing book reviews but at the same time I don’t want to be restricted in that being the only thing that I’m allowed to write about. So, I started up this blog in a bid to post up what I wanted, when I wanted and give myself the freedom that I so badly wanted back .
However, the last month or so I’ve become obsessed with trying to figure out what my blogs ‘thing’ is. People keep telling me that my blog needs a thing, which I guess in my previous blog that was books. I feel like I’ve been using trying to find what my thing is basically as an excuse to procrastinate – because doesn’t everyone need the littlest excuse to not to do things? I watched a vlog recently and they were saying how Netflix and phone games and whatever else you chose to do instead will still be there after you’ve wrote things, and you know what that is so true. I spend too much of my life putting things off. Maybe yes I spend too much time watching Netflix lately and I definitely spend way too much time talking myself out of writing this blog with a million stupid reasons as to why I shouldn’t write it. Who cares if no one else but myself reads it? Who cares if people disagree with my opinions on things? This year was certainly an eye opener for me that people aren’t always going to like or agree with the things you do in life but why should that be a reason not to do things?
The truth is, I’ve missed blogging. I’ve enjoyed taking a few months out and have just read what I’ve wanted read and I’ve watched what I wanted to on Netflix but I’ve missed that little weekly burst of writing I used to get from doing a blog. Maybe I don’t need to decide what my thing is. Maybe just writing every week will help me discover. Maybe just writing up weekly waffle is a thing? Who knows, but I’m back giving this another go.
The diary is back out, the weekly blog planning is happening again and I’ve talked to people about doing the occasional guest post on here. I’m excited about doing this again and for the time being that is all that matters.
melissay 